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Wednesday, September 16, 2009

okayy i shall stop posting until after eoys. OMG 14 days countdown. time to start luh D: anw how to revise for eoy huh? read notes, 10 yr series? sickening man. study like so easy to say but difficult to do. cannot do anth in the past year papers. gg T.T

i realised i am neither sciences or arts. crappp. okay lorh everybody decide alrdy. sigh all this things always very demoralising. oh yah just rmbed got another piano exam. HAHA erm tmr tmr. HAHA go for fun bah :D suju M sounds funnaye.

Monday, September 7, 2009

sigh smth bad just happened D: what am i supposed to do? i don't have the courage to face this anymore. i know its my fault but i can't seem to hate myself. and i can't find a way out even though i've been trying so hard. and i can't stop thinking abt it. can't sleep or eat properly. can't do anything. can't forget the memories. i was stupid to take it for granted. now everything has changed. this is the worst i've ever felt. so useless.

how to move on.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

3/5/09

drama perf not bad heh. first time watching anw.

4/5/09

dinner with sec 4s. murtabak-.- but its quite nice first time also. and first time watching the getai at my house there. HAHA. got the 17 year old malaysian singer that appeared in the newspaper okay. woah singing not bad. stood with all the uncles. and listened to sick jokes :p ptg :O

5/5/09

shopping at orchard. haagan daz. OHNO didn't do any work for the past few days. i'm looking forward to tmr. HAHA sigh cannot do work again.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

28/8
celebrated july august sept babies bday... ate doughnuts! and caught homer eating pink doughnut!
celebrated sherbit's 16th bday ♥ crystal jade leh. ice cream cake! and pool (: caught the last 77 from esplanade. OMG jaywalked across 6 lanes to run after the bus >.<
30/8
watched MJ's munich concert. king of pop ♥
he cried a few times on stage :X when he sang i'll be there and you're never alone. can tell that he was struggling emotionally and yet he cannot say it D:
poor thing luh. and then he wrote so many songs which benefited the world yet ppl treat him like that.
31/8
faked scales. sorta worked? haha anw all seperate bows ftw. aural was okay. totally ignore clef change in sightreading. pieces ah... accompanist heard my hand trembling D: induced vibrato? sigh watever luh. if can pass then pass lorh. but if fail i got no face to meet homer alrdy. he has been so tolerant and i keep giving him excuses and all the extra lessons (which i paid for) >.<
1/9
go orch or not? sigh i have no motivation to go back to that place. i don't even want to play for the hk concert. but what to do. can i just say no?
very selfish luh. but howhowhow? strings is no longer the same as it was back then.
and all the tensions are making everything worse.
i don't want to see or hear anth.
i am becoming more resolute not to join hc strings D:
just realised math test tmr.
i am dead. so many chances also. hello kitty is a really good teacher, too bad i don't know how to treasure D:
if i screw up tmr. i don't know what to say.
sorry? >.< !@%*&( dammit luh.
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